Numb

I feel so off today. Sad, distracted, aching. I feel like my life is falling apart. Maybe it’s too much for some but not to me. At some point, I wanted to go somewhere now where nobody can find me. So that I can bring back how it feels like to be me again. I feel so lost, cold and it’s like I was hit in the body by a thousand saps and now i'm numb. Can’t explain why. I just don’t want to feel what I’m feeling right now. I hate this. I know God will help me get through this feeling. Shoo negative vibes! :/

ctrl + alt +del

Delete. To remove, erase, or even cancel. If your computer is stuck on something and cannot move on or lagged, just press ctrl+alt+del to continue. Delete can be used in so many ways, deleting a file, a misspelled word, grammar error, typos. Anything. You can even delete the most important file in your computer if it is the cause of its lag or error. Is it really the solution? Can you still recover your important file? Maybe, if you want to. There are what ifs or is its on a computer problem, so I guess you should trouble shoot carefully first before proceeding with the deletion of that file. Actually, there are two (2) ways to delete, the temporary deletion (pressing just the delete button or selecting ‘Delete’ in your keyboard or menu options) which goes to your recycle bin on your Desktop or, the permanent deletion (pressing shift+del) by selecting this, that file will no longer be restored in your system. So if you’re stuck, are you going to temporarily delete it (which you can restore afterwards once problem has been resolved) or just permanently delete it completely for the rest of your computer’s life without looking for other possibilities to resolve a certain problem?

FU

Tax- is a "pecuniary burden laid upon individuals or property owners to support the government [...] a payment exacted by legislative authority." It "is not a voluntary payment or donation, but an enforced contribution, exacted pursuant to legislative authority" and is "any contribution imposed by government [...] whether under the name of toll, tribute, tallage, gabel, impost, duty, custom, excise, subsidy, aid, supply, or other name." (Source: Wikipedia)

I hate our government. I hate them for being greedy-selfish-lying sons of bitches. I hope you all burn in hell for what you are doing to us. I wish I can say how can I be so judgmental? I don’t know politics, I DON’T care about it. But no, I am deeply affected by this TAX bullcrap. Should this really be that high? I mean come on, support for government? For them to work hard and make our country better? BULL. LOAD OF BULLCRAP. Maybe I really don’t understand the works, it’s just seem so fucking unfair for the people. Make us proud and do your fucking job to make this country better and you won’t hear a single cuss from us. But for the meantime, fuck you.

I love...

I love it when you’re around me.

I love it when I make you smile.

I love our small conversations.

I love it when we argue and laugh about it afterwards.

I love how you appreciate things.

I love how you explain things to me I don’t know about.

I love waking up with you in mornings.

Watching you sleep.

Sharing my food.

Facing you while we eat.

Smiling at me.

Laughing at my corniest jokes.

When you’re getting drunk.

Sitting beside you.

Everything about you.

Forgive me if I love you too much.

I just love it.

Achoo!

Who loves coughs and colds? I don’t. Well, Phoebe (Lisa Kudrow) from friends might. Remember that episode when she caught a virus which made her voice sounded sexy (Maybe for her)? For me, or any normal being may not. I hate this. I hate my body for having a low immune system. Maybe I should blame myself for not taking the prescribed meds my doctor gave me to boost my immune system. BOO! My cold made me want to eat a Chicken Noodle Soup. A real one. Not instant, but real Chicken Noodle Soup. They say that it is a good remedy for coughs and colds and can be taken as a comfort food. Yum. That hot chicken broth with chicken chunks or pieces of chicken with noodles or rice, dumplings and veggies. YUUUUUUM. I haven’t tried one. But I want to. Maybe it’ll make me feel better. Just like the book Chicken Noodle Soup for the soul. After you read it, it’ll make you feel like you’re ten times lighter.

Ok, so I may be over reacting. I haven’t read it either. Well anyways, my point Is to get better, feel better. And I will be someone’s servant for a year (scratch that) for a month if anyone can make one now. As in, NOW. 

Back on track?

My inner writer mode has been disabled for a long time and I think my writing skills are already rusty (or if I have one). I don’t know why I stopped writing. Is it because of working too much? I don’t know. I remember how I used to write my not-so-perfect-highfaluting-words in blogs for my Multiply account. Words just kept on going and going and going like the Energizer bunny. And it suddenly stopped.

 Writing for me I guess is one way to relieve stress, to get things off your mind from your day to day struggle in life. So maybe this one’s the reason my blogs are not organized (hehe). I just write what comes in my mind. I missed writing. It kept me sane. I once told a friend that I can express my feelings more in writing than telling it in person. So forgive me for any grammatical errors or whatsoever. This is one of my new year’s resolutions, to write as many blogs as I can to get me back on track (getting in shape included) and other top secret new year’s resolution stuff.